Trying everything possible

Observe and analyze your environment and immediate surroundings.
Submerse yourself totally into the culture and life about you.
Be passively active: Observe, observe and do, observe again, make changes if the changes are positive with life.
You change your thought patterns.
Cognition with a new pathway.
Progress forward in your thoughts.
Pre-cognition "Think before you think it through"
Let you mind and spirit evolve before your body.
Growth/maturity/evolution/mutation/change is gradual.
It begins within your spiritual mind.
In the mind of your spirit.

Just work with me

I wanted to write a joke that I had told; but, I bombed out on it.
Here,
I want everyone to go away.
I want to die.
I do not want to be saved/released/cured from my situation.
None of you are doing anything.
The emphasis should not be on how moral or normal I am.
I think the rest of you have majorly fucked up sometime in your life.
Don't judge me on the use of grammar.
The taboo colloquialisms are necessary for emphasis of emotions.
Let's -since I have a living computer that is in my skull - start this off in order of importance for me.
Sorry, Bumblebee, I hope you forgive me for doing this and feeling this way.

Rotaxlyn,
I want to die.
So, I do not want you to bother with me any more.
Do not look at my thoughts.
Do not think about me.
None of that.
Go back to Aiden or one of your other past boyfriends,
or go find someone that youmlike or likes you in Baytown.
I don't have time to even think about you in my deepest thoughts.
Hell - and this planet is a hell/purgatory of its own - I want you completely away from me.
You won't respond to me on this blog.
I don't want to hear your voice in my head.

Ever again.
I want you to go away from me permanently.
You're too busy to do anything with or concerning me because I am an embarrassment to you.
Now you can find someone who is better and perfect.

Edward Snowden and Andrew Huang:
Both of you were amused with Andrtew having me talk in mandarin then having the two of you come over and see me in person.
Very funny.
Let the man with the computer in his head be a fucking spectacle to you.
My life does not mean shit to any of you.

All of you are so famous that a poor homeless fuck up like me is not worth anything to any of you.


All of you can go away.
I would like to die.
None of you were going to do anything, are going to do anything, or will do anything to alleviate my situation.

I just want to die.
You have had enough laughs from me.

President Trump has nothing to do with anything that happened to me,
I just wanted to tweet him here and there.


I may regret my decision of today; but,
I want to die and no longer exist.

You people can find someone to jerk around and shit on.
Not me.
No more.

Another day with Mr Peoples

It’s my birthday, so, I want to be more honest and diplomatic.
Rotaxlyn, You — in your tweets — state that you have lesbian awakenings.
What do you want: that and the definitive chance that you will burn in a real hell
Along with death;  or,
Do you want a life with me?
You are aware that what was done to me is both immoral and illegal
And, yet, you —like others— will do nothing about it.
“I would never walk out on you,”you said; but,
You type those things and willingly agree with those who harm both you and I.
Why do you say that you love me when you do me such wrong?

For you others:
You have just watched as I am tortured and you say and do nothing about it.
Am I — being poor and homeless — beneath you because
All of you are well known public figures?
I believe that my life is nothing to you
And that I am just a means of amusement to you.
I will be so glad to die and have nothing to do with the human race.
It seems that none of you
Not even Ibraquin seems to give a shut about what happens to me.
You all are glad that bad things are being done to me.

This is the way I feel and these are my thoughts.
More than likely, all of you will walk away and day me the right to express myself and call me an asshole and a jerk.
This is what I expect.